might be the hardest thing I ever done

Lämnar inga spår efter mig

erasing my failures

the mind is powerful, you can change your thoughts and become someone els

I think there might be something wrong with me

under the surface, du skulle inte känna igen mig

I wonder each time, how can this be?

I keep sinking

måste kämpa mig uppåt

to the light to the wonderful embrace of you

take me in and i'll surrender in your arms I wish to stay

There's no other way of treating me

Get this agony out of my chest

feels like a million knives penetrating my lungs

hur ska man göra när man inte har nån kraft?

I keep reading these books of self-help, keep confusing my mind with the magic trick.

"Depression drains your energy, hope, and drive, making it difficult to do what you need to feel better. But while overcoming depression isn’t quick or easy, it’s far from impossible. You can’t beat it through sheer willpower, but you do have some control—even if your depression is severe and stubbornly persistent. The key to depression recovery is to start small and build from there. Feeling better takes time, but you can get there if you make positive choices for yourself each day and draw on the support of others."

And I who thought that when its over its over.. but its never really over.